In my daily life, there is no stress…

Hello everyone

I am so pleased I attended Zivorad’s seminars in London, including on the final day, the past/future rundown. Those 5 days were, without any doubt, the most powerful positive experience of my life. And the outstanding results are still holding.

Here is my first assessment of the current repercussions for me. Please bear in mind that I have been sitting zazen every day for over three years.. so I have done huge amounts of work already on myself.

And this is the most interesting part.. there are no more problems.. there is no more hour after hour of self analysis.. no-one to analyse.. no-one to observe…. There are a few tears maybe once a week now, rather than 4 or 5 times a day.. and those tears are of release and joy from acceptance of my own okness.

The conversations I had within.. my guilt ridden feelings for having betrayed my Higher Self’s life purpose… well, now, there is no such duality.. there is no seperate HS.. instead, I AM. What is so strange, is that my mind begins to follow the old way of thinking.. the old internal “I’m so sorry” and within 1-2 seconds, I get the total incongruence of this thinking.. and it stops. My mind is becoming more and more empty. Now, this is a great benefit.. yet at the same time, I miss having myself to talk to. Does this make any sense.. LOL.

There is still no up, no down, no past, no future, no male female.. no I and the Universe.. this last one is so very peculiar. Those two have always been there, my whole life.. and now they are not. I seem to have to get used to a whole new way of thinking and perceiving myself.

Someone attempted to control me over a situation.. I simply let things go.. it just doesn’t matter any more. It doesn’t occur to me to be grasping or competetive and consequently, things seem to come towards me quite naturally of their own accord…

I haven’t been sitting zazen every day.. when I do, I enter into peace and bliss quite easily..

In my daily life, there is no stress.. I have a huge amount of work to do at present, yet it warrants no emotional response, whereas before, even the thought of it, brought on massive levels of anxiety, panic and emotional negativity and physiological pain. Now, nothing.. absolutely nothing. In every situation, I am calm and I take everything in my stride.

Wow, great.. LOL.

So, that’s my results so far. I would really love to hear from other attendees, how they are getting on, either on list or privately.

Hugs,

MaryA (Mary Ashley)